this time of year

makes me miss you incredibly.

What happened to us?

It's only now, while every song reminds me of you, that I realise you meant everything to me.

Had I known everything I do now, I would have appreciated you so, oh so much more.

I hate myself for hating that you're happy.

golden ticket

eleven months, one week, six days and 11702​.​5 later, and Finbarr Noble is still one of the most incredible people i have ever known.

I always think I see him everywhere, double takes are a regular occurrence, often followed by disappointment
what a hero!

One day....

live, boots and hating uni

Today I found out that I have been fooled into thinking this uni course was 'the perfect course' turns out it isn't.

LAME.
Why would i want to do four years? four years is lame.

But i found some nice boots today and i think i might buy them tomorrow, even though they are extremely difficult to put on.

Earlier I met a very nice italian man who had these incredible medium format cameras, looking on ebay now I am SO tempted to bid...

I have also recently obtained Ableton Live, which by the way is amazing.
Hopefully roberto will actually do some cool stuff with me and it, give my life some meaning, so i can eventually stop listening to him talk about all the incredible female drummers at acm, which makes me hate life, and in turn talk about how incredible I am at being a fake mac based musician.
LOVELY.

Also Paul Smith 'Rose' actually smells exactly like roses. Whooda thought it.

Some guy I used to know YEARS ago just found me on facebook. Creepy, but also hilarious considering his profile has been spewed over, with statements such as 'loving his bbe girl tiff allways' HA. He is also now even more tubby, and looks even more like he has some kind of disorder.
BRILLIANT.

Not too long ago

Someone extremely important to me told me that if they weren't to see me anymore, they would be sad for a while, but life would go on.
Maybe I'm, i don't know what, too involved, or unhealthily captivated

but this scared me,
terrifed me in fact.

I felt disposable, expendable, replaceable.
I still do.

This person means the world to me, and life would really not be okay.

Parkway and Uni

went to see parkway drive the other night - so so good.
i absolutely love hardcore shows. But they've become so angry, which sounds stupid when you remind yourself of the genre. But there was literally so many fights. Everyone was so hostile and couldn't bare anyone looking at them or touching them. Its a fucking gig? It was not cool.
Parkway were brilliant though, as usual. Though so much better in smaller venues than the 2110 capacity Forum.

Also i'm trying to sort out all my ucas stuff and its not good.
I just really want to get in to Kent, and if i don't I'm gonna have loads of lame places to fall back on, which I am definitely not looking forward to.
I think I might apply to a bunch of art foundations as well as a last resort and to keep some doors open.

I'm generally excited about uni though.
PLEASE KENT!

my personal statement

is too long
kdjgdfhdfjkshk;dfjg

today i went to see winchester uni, it was so chilled out. not bad not bad. but too close to home maybe
and not a patch on the almighty KENT.

also, aperture 2.0? I am a fan.

also someone please buy me a fiat 500 for christmas!

aristea

Oh how I miss them and their perfect nose.


Being on tills all day is not the joy I had once imagined.

Fireworks tonight, another holiday from the bottomless cup of excuses we have to get waaaaasted.

LADS ON TOUR or something

last night

I (almost accidently) saw Wheatus live. My 9 year old self can now die very happy.

Tonight I am going to do a ton of politics work, and the maybe have time to watch the Nightmare Before Christmas.
But for now I'm watching hanging out with my cat and watching nickelodeon.

Oh the life of an A2 student.

Also I did this today:
http://www.politicalcompass.org/test
and it was really interesting, check it out

Here are my results:


and here's something to compare it to: